Opus Jay 2013 World Tour

I'm finally reviving this dead place. Honestly, I never felt so lazy in my whole life. I haven't been doing anything productive ever since the end of my FYP. Anyway, it's not the highlight of the post today. I really want to share about Jay Chou's concert which I attended last night. Amazing, is an understatement.

12歲，我就開始聽 933。從一開始的隨便聽聽直到漸地愛上中文流行音樂。我相信大家都有自己愛聽的風格，抒情、搖滾、日韓。而我？我偏愛創作型歌手。我記得，對周傑倫的歌曲印象最深刻的是晴天（我當時才中一）？因爲我的同學用班上的播放機播了當時正紅的這一首歌，也因為這首歌，我開始認識周傑倫。奇怪的是前幾張專輯的歌我都聽過，但沒有非常深刻的印象。反而從第五張《葉惠美》專輯喜歡上他歌曲的曲風。之後的每張專輯，不是我就是我老哥會買。

從《尋找周傑倫》 EP 當中的軌迹、斷了的弦到《七里香》的同名主打七里香，芭樂歌曲藉口到頭文字 D 中的插曲一路向北然後夜曲楓等等等，發片至今已有12張完整專輯，而每一張專輯我確定會有好幾首是每個人都會跟着哼唱的。昨晚的演唱會，他就唱了多首金典歌如安靜、晴天、一路向北、世界末日、最后的戰役、回到過去、軌迹、不能說的祕密、牛仔很忙等等的好歌。最讓人感動的是演唱會仿佛是大型 KTV，在周傑倫演唱這些歌時，觀衆都揮著手中粉紅色的熒光棒，跟著一起合唱。

我認為周傑倫演唱會的賣點并不止是因爲他非常有才華，而是他對于每一場演唱會都要求完美。意思是不管聽覺、視覺、感覺都讓人完全感受到歌曲与作詞作曲人所想要表達的。例如唱到中國風得歌曲時，將背景布置成一間小客棧，讓人很容易就能聆聽每一首歌的故事。演唱會中所運用的效果也都讓人眼前為之一亮。哎呀，我還真不怎么會形容啊，真的必須到現場感受一下才能聽懂我所說的！

我最愛的部分當然是周傑倫在鋼琴後面以及抱着一把吉他帥氣地自彈自唱一首首我熟悉的歌曲。聽周傑倫的歌10年了，真的是聽著他的歌曲長大的。昨天是我第二次觀賞傑倫的演唱會，依舊精彩。下一場不知還得等多久，但下一次我仍然會繼續支持！

Whatever will be, will be

I've been pretty bogged down by FYP. Sometimes I really wonder why I'm in Chemistry when my lab skills sucks so much that I always make mistakes or can't do things properly. It's not that I look down on myself or lack confidence, maybe I'm just someone who's good at the theory but really bad at practical. But Chemistry is all about lab work. Or maybe I'm just not cut out for this. It's pretty late saying this after studying 4 years of Chemistry? Been talking to so many people recently, my fellow course mate, my friend, my parents, my bro. We've been discussing so much about what job to get, which jobs to apply for, where to apply to, which recruitment talks to go for. So much that I don't know what I really want anymore, or maybe I never knew what I wanted. SEE, so many maybes in just one paragraph. hahaha. Much as I dislike lab and don't want to work there or hate there I think I'll end up applying to companies Chemistry related first, because I don't know where else I can go. I need to start, somewhere.

Today's Good Friday. It's been really long since the previous public holiday. I really love public holidays because it's an extremely good excuse to put work aside and enjoy. But after all the enjoyment, reality starts setting in and work starts to come to mind. There're some things that you just have to accept if you can't change. That aside, my Good Friday's really great. I had buffet lunch at The Edge Pan Pacific with my family. My cousin from Malaysia was supposed to visit us but she couldn't make it last min. Dinner was with my family too. And since they had something on, Chee Hon and I decided to visit 愛琴海. I love the place and I'm sure I'll be there anytime I need somewhere to chill, relax or destress. Love the ambience, the singers, the songs. <3

I saw this quote somewhere.. it says "Be happy for no reason, like a child. If you're happy for a reason, you're in trouble, because that reason can be taken from you."

"Worrying does not take away tomorrow's troubles, it takes away today's peace." So whatever that comes, we'll just have to take it.

It's time, to be happy.

sighhh

It's 8 more weeks to the submission of my report and I'm feeling so much pressure already. It's so tiring everyday reading journal papers after journal papers, rephrasing and writing the intro. And now? looking for protocols online to refer to so I can write my materials and methods. Next will be results and discussion which will be the bulk of the report. Not to mention that I still have experiments to run 2 weeks later because the RNA that I'm supposed to use this week for my expt was synthesized wrongly and I have to wait for another 2 weeks. I'm stressed man, really. So many things to worry about. Whether I've time to finish my expt, my report, my poster and probably even a presentation.

Sometimes I wonder whether I'll still take this path if I could turn back time. I know decisions made at any point in time is the best option that you chose so naturally there are no wrong decisions.

I'm so tired, someone save me from all this nonsense pls. :'(

12.41pm

I haven't been staying up late ever since I started my internship on 14th Jan because I'll be so dead tired after a whole day of running around looking for samples, carrying crates and crates of samples and standing on my feet weighing for the whole day. I'll usually be asleep by 11.30pm. hahaha. Ok, not that 12.41pm is extremely late because I used to stay till 2am doing Maths while listening to my fave 93.3 when I was in secondary school. Sometimes, I really miss being a secondary school kid because I still felt happy studying, learning and doing homework (not the exams though, definitely!). But now, I feel like a secondary school kid being up at 12 plus after I'm done with a little bit of my fyp report (I FINALLY STARTED WRITING!) and listening to Jay Chou's new album. I've been so tied up with my internship/ fyp decision then, I didnt even have time for his new songs. But yay to music after boring hours of work, esp when Jay Chou's album's soooo much better this time round. Can't wait for his concert in June, if I can get the tics!

Music never fails me. <3 Till then! :)

Living

It's 2 weeks after the change. &I quite like the way it is now. Flexible timings, own time, own target. FYP's pretty good other than the fact that it's graded. Yes, I fall into the category of emphasizing too much on my grades. Every semester, I just mug and mug. Sometimes I don't really understand what I'm studying, I just memorize because I need to maintain the grades that I've had so much that I feel down if I fail. I pressure myself every semester, hard, sometimes it takes a toll on my health. And after all that, I wonder whether it's all worth it. My boyfriend says I'm always able to convince myself that grades actually aren't that important But after a while, I go back to where I was and the whole cycle just repeats itself.

How is it possible to say that there's much more outside than just your grades when your first job, starting pay all depends on this certificate with the class. It's so important to be practical. What's dreams and passion if you've got no money? But then again, what's life if you've got no dreams and passion?

"Passion. Meaning. Those who don't have passion for, and/or don't find meaning in whatever they're doing now, be it your job or education, don't waste your time. Look into yourself, and ask yourself these questions: "Why am I doing what I am doing now? What do I really want in life? What makes my life fulfilling? What do I find meaning in doing?" Majority will not be able to answer these questions. People without self-awareness, direction and aspirations are merely surviving, not living." -- my friend, Nicholas

And now do I know, I'm only surviving, not living.